Goodbye Grandma

Yesterday morning Brian's grandma passed away.  The one we went to visit last month.  This year has really sucked in terms of trying to explain death to a three year old.  Actually I haven't had to deal with it much myself in a long time either.

I'm sitting here and I can't even see straight through the tears.  Good thing I don't have to see to be able to type. 

I only got to know her for a little over 5 years, but she became another Grandma to me.  Every time she wrote to us (and it was often) she would always add that they were praying for us.  There are no words for how much that meant to me.

Christmas 2009

We've known it was coming obviously, but that doesn't make it any easier.  She's been fighting this recurrence of mouth cancer for about a year now (and no, she never smoked) and was more and more in pain.  The one consolation is that we know without any doubt that she is in a better place now with her son and Jesus and so this is only goodbye for a little while.

July 2010

She leaves a pretty big hole though.  We talked to Grandpa last night and I just kept imagining Grandma's voice chiming in.  She loved to talk so taking that away from her was just so awful.  She was always a wonderful hostess and so easy to be around.

July 2010

I'm so so thankful that she had a chance to get to know her great grandsons.  She adored them and I think the feeling was mutual.  Cory will remember bits and pieces, but Noah won't.  They do have the most wonderful strong legacy though.

We won't be going to Oregon any time soon as the memorial is tentatively planned for after Christmas, but perhaps that's just as well.  It will give us all time to remember all the stories we want to share about her.

Grandma, you are so loved and you will be so so missed.