Blah

After joining this blogging community of mom's this month it became my intention to try to write at least every other day. Then came this week.
I feel blah. About everything. I really don't even want to write today, but I have pictures to share (for the grandparents! ;)

Oh, and here's a new reviews site. For moms of little ones. DE reviews. they are currently giving away a baby wrap from Hug a Bug Baby. These things are really nice!

My brother's dog, Mara. She likes to hold her own leash...

Cory on Grandma's shoulder at a wedding we went to 2 weeks ago.

My little man, just being cute!

Look mom, I can drink out of my own sippy cup... and it's RED!

Cory and Daddy playing
(why is it that I can never get a decent picture of my husband? He always has to make some kind of strange face! Is this what I have to look forward to with Cory...?)

A day at the park

Isn't he just adorable?

Miss Lydia and brother Isaiah

We didn't get a picture of the Baby Brigade because Mee Sook, Shoresh, and Azriel were sick. I was kinda glad (not that they were sick) because Shoresh is a speed demon on his tricycle and we have to walk FAST to keep up with him. This way we walked pretty slow and I was in the mood for that.


This is how I found Cory this afternoon after I'd put him down for a minute. I guess he decided he needed a nap himself so he pulled the blanket up over his face and was out! I thought it was too quiet... (he moved a little before I could get the camera, he was completely head under the blanket before)

So here's my theory - if it can be called that - on why I'm blah. Or at least part of the reason. Pastor John started a new sermon series 2 weeks ago on the Holy Spirit. It's pretty good already and this is on the 2nd one. It's something we really don't get much exposure to unless we study it on our own.
Not that I remember much specific about the sermon (but hey, at least I remembered the topic, right?) but one of the worship songs we sang has been going around in my head all week. It's by Hillsongs Australia and I finally had to go look up the words because I don't know it real well.

Let the Peace of God Reign

Father of life draw me closer

Lord, my heart is set on You

Let me run the race of time

With Your life enfolding mine

And let the peace of God

Let it reign

Oh Holy Spirit, You're my comfort

Strengthen me, hold my head up high

And I stand upon Your truth

Bringing glory unto You

And let the peace of God

Let it reign

Oh Lord I hunger for more of You

Rise up within me let me know Your truth

Oh Holy Spirit saturate my soul

And let the life of God fill me now

Let Your healing power breathe life and

Make me whole

And let the peace of God let it reign

It's the second verse that's been going around in my head.

Plus I've been reading a book by Henri Nouwen (one of my all time favorites from college) called the road to daybreak. In it he writes about his year spent in France at a community called L'Arche which is for severely handicapped people. It's a place of quiet since most of them can't talk, and it's a place of service because most of the assistants are there full time and have committed to living there long term with the residents.
Anyways, he's writing about feeling distracted and then he comes to Mary's response to the angel, Gabriel. "The Holy Spirit will come upon you and the power of the Most High will cover you with its shadow." and Mary's response was "You see before you the Lord's servant; let it happen to me as you have said." (Luke 1) Nouwen then comments that her words "summarize the deepest possible response to God's loving action within us. God wants to let the Holy Spirit guide our lives, but are we prepared to let it happen?" This was "Mary saying "Yes" to God's love."

I wonder how hard it is, really, to let the HS guide your life. what would it look like. to me sometimes I'm too afraid of what I might have to give up. like control. or what it would require of me. I don't really like change that much.

So part of my "theory" wonders if because I've been thinking about this Satan doesn't want me to and he's part of my feeling blah. But then again maybe I'm giving him too much credit and I'm just tired.

Yes, it has literally taken me all day to write this post. Cory has been super fussy - I'm not sure why. Plus I'm just blah. Still.